heyyss..today class was okayy..not fun and not boring but im so damn sad..
jow can he do dat to me? infront of me summore..wats is he trying to tell me? WTH lahh..u now wad happen?
aftr skul went for lunch den went up to e hall to c e ppl get their O's result..den went down go straight to band..den we went for individual den maisy decided to do sectional at our own place so yeah we went out n practice overture num 1 den suddenly ey all stop n sae 'i need e metronome' n everybody is lyk dun wanna take..
so me n lina volunteered to take e mr parkson so we went into e band rm n i ask ahmad to take mr parkson n i waited n sitted there foe more den a minute.. suddenli a gerl came n den cupcake went n run to her n say i dunno wat ey saying cuz i never hear..sanggup seh dier lari.. =[
den he go hold e gerl's hand n they shake hands for more than a min..i was sitting there looking at em n i was lyk OMG..n ey smiled at each other n lyk wth larrhhh..
den i run back leaving lina behind cuz i so heartbroken so sad..sory lina for leaving u behind i dunwanna see anithin again..den run to fana n tell her wat happened..den she say' u okay or not? relaks relax kay..now u noe hw i feel..'
i was lyk sa damn sad..i kep daydreaming n couldnt concentrate on anithin den i sae to fana' if u hadnt had ask me to go band rm to take e metronome i waouldnt have saw everyhtin n be heartbroken..she was, 'so sorry..i didnt noe it happen' actualli i nt mad but i dunnoe lahh..seriously sehh..den i refuse to go band rm till he went hm den i went bck band rm n threw everythin on e floor n quickly pack up n went hm..
wen i reached hm i slammed e door hard n ran to my bedroom..i sat down on my bed n cried..huhuhu..so sad sia..
tkpe..ada budi ada batas ada hari kami balas..haha..
im gonna go skul tmr n i pretend to be mad i wun c his face or stare at hym or smile at hym as usual..i'll pretend dat he's not there..serve hym right for doin dat kind of thing to me..gosh..im so sad.. ='[
niwae juz finish my hmks..n nw listening to songs..i dunwanna cry..
i feel lyk cutting myself again..i've stop cutting myself since i noe cupcake but i feel lyk doin it again..im not scared of knives or sharp things nw..even my parents were worried wen ey saw my scars..i juz said it was e cat who scratched me..
i tink dats all..i realli dun wann arecall wat happen juz nw..it hurts..it really does..
im off
INA
xD