today,my gums and lips are swollen n it's really hard for me to talk so i better give hand signals..LOL..and jac keep laughing at me ahh..so bad..haha..then during recess just bought chocolate milk drink and it's still super painful wen i drink it.. pedih sehh.so must the straw directly into my throat..i didnt eat anything..it's hard..i can only chew with my tongue and upper mouth..den i have to swallow everything so cant taste anything..so wats the point of eating? might as well i sleep the whole day..so yeah went home n dad forced me to eat maggi.cooked magggi and i only had like 5 spoonfuls then i put the bowl aside wen dad went off to mosque.so yeah that will be the only meal for me for today..seriously i dunwanna eat aything..and isa, he wipe off nearly all my appetite ah..
i was cooking wen suddenly he ran behind me and smack my bakbone.i was like WTF siol? den i pushed him into the toilet as he was about to pour water segayung at me. den i push the gayung so the water splashed at him instead.den he shouted at me but i ignored and continue cooking.guess wad he did? wen i was infront of that stove and the maggi is boiling, he take a gayung of water and pour at my head.the water splashed on me n into the fire and the hot boiling garvy of the maggi splashed at my body and hands.its was super hot ahh..den i shout n told dad..den i go take the gayung n go to his room n throw at his hand but he go push the door and it kena my hand n my swollen wrist..i was so pissed off with him i shouted and say words infront of my dad.i said, "prangai cam anak setan.da bagos2 ayah antar gy skola taknak gy,menyusahkan org je." he kept quiet and for the first time dad sided me but he didnt protest or say anything.den i ran to the kitchen sat infornt of the bowl of maggi and cried.den dad asked why i never eat cuz he dunno im crying as im sitting facing my back at him. den he go to the kitchen n throw sumthing n look at me..den he touch my head and my back.for the first time..i love u dad..hahas..seriously.den no appetite to eat so just sat infront of the bowl n continue crying.den dad asked me to eat so untuk sedapkan ati dier i ate few spoonfuls and stopped..den go to my room n here i am letting out my feelings.
to abg[isa]: i hate you ah..u are seriously going mad..u arent the old you..im starting to hate my own brother..dont u know all the things u did to me was painful and hurtful? u dont know cuz u werent the one feeling.im a girl.u hit me like u hit ur frens.im not ur frens.im ur adek.spare a thought for me lah.are u out of ur mind? where's the old u who loves goin to school and share wad u've been through with me and joke around cheering me up wen im down? ur changing.i dun like it.dun make me hate my own bro and im suffering because of u. ='[ seriously.i hate ur attitude now.

signing off:
SA