Today it all ended like fuck.
Really.cakap la ape korg nak ckp.tu korg nyer psl.
i feel so hopeless. i was sitting there with loads of things in my mind trying to concentrate like shit and suddenly i felt so hopeless.all my confidence are gone in one sentence.
It's all wiped out away totally. im pissed off like shit.
i tried to hide my anger and throw it away cuz im scared i might hurt others. suddenly i feel like bursting into tears but what would the others say? im weak? yeah i am. it's totally like fuck.
embarassed? maybe i am but i deserve it for not practicing hard enuf right? i'm trying to hide all those fucking anger with those fake laughs and smiles.stupid.it's really stupid.i just can't seem to let out my anger.
all the while i was thinking, WTF? WTF? WTF? those things that happen seems like it just happened a second ago.i could remember all those words fucking clearly. i'm gonna rmb those words forever man..
i dunno what else to say..i need advice..sucks.