oh gosh.sooooooo many things had been happening lately..i feel so ahhhhrrrggghhh..
i tell u my head is gonna burst soon because of all this problems..i dunno wad to do. i feel so hopeless....why?? why all these?? one problem after another.i feel soooo urgh i dunno man.if i could disappear from here, run away from all these stupid problems i had alr m.i.a but i pitied my dad.i noe he's having a tough situation too.i dun wanna make the situation worst.i love my dad.my feelings.. mad,disappointed, sad, all that emotions are mixed up.my heart is like shattered into pieces.i can't see all these things happening to my family.i cant i just can't. ohh whyy..i noe its all affecting my studies.i tried not to show my sadness infront of ppl..i tried to keep it inside my heart inside of me for as long as i can, not trying to break down again,ohh ya Allah..im like a person with no direction.. my mind, me heart, its filled with these things.i need to calm my mind.i noe crying n running away from these problems won't help a bit..i need to be strong i noe.. i can't focus on anythings..these problems keep spinning in my head. that really dreadful nite it's all like a nightmare but its not, it's reality. it really broke me down into billion of pieces.. i can't stop recalling what happen. i feel so disappointed.kecewa tersangat. wen i look at my dad's face, pity.i noe my mum's having a hard time too..im really damn disappointed with my brother.. i just dun wan his future to be ruin. darah daging aku sendiri. oh goshh.. ohh my heart's swelling. it really hurt me so much. so much. i wanna sit sumwhere, calm my mind n just clear everything..
[ get well soon... ]